It is such an amazing experience to hold space for another on their healing journey, while reflecting on how my own can guide them. Another coaching session with a client today reminded me that subtle action amidst the ocean of things we cannot change is often more powerful than we think. As I slowly grow in my new consulting business, I am in awe of the progress I’ve made in learning to live well with a serious mood disorder. I now have a deep appreciation of the richness th

I’ve spent most of my time sharing my lived-experience with Bipolar Disorder in this blog with the hope of helping others living with a similar condition feel less alone. Unknowingly, my raw stories have also impacted those who support loved ones who live with Bipolar, opening a door to better understanding dysregulated behavior that can feel so confusing to them. An important recent conversation with a loved-one offered me an important perspective shift; reminding me that my

It’s been a few weeks with my head deep in computer-land, focusing on designing my new business website. As I come up for air, I’ve noticed the theme throughout this process has been one of integrity. Without knowing, this notion of transparent honesty has popped up in all spheres of my life, starting with my messaging on joelleperras.com . I took on the challenge of building my own site and quickly woke to the reality that these web pages would carry my values and beliefs i

I love this time of year. I‘ve just completed my yearly ritual of beginning January: I spend a few days in retreat reviewing the previous year‘s successes, struggles and challenges. Then I meditate on what my soul desires for the year ahead, establishing my goals and dreams. And finish it off with my “word of the year” that will guide me through the fog on difficult days. This ritual has become a pillar in my mental health practice and management of Bipolar Disorder; it allow

Have you ever felt like you were stepping into the role you were made for? This is something I am feeling for the first time in my life. It has come with years of self-doubt, overcoming challenges and transforming my past into richness for the present. This might sound a bit like destiny-speak, as if there is only one thing meant for me, or perhaps fate made it happen. I don’t actually believe there is only one role for me in this lifetime, though I am currently experiencing

November 7th, 2025 It’s that time again. Feeling overstimulated by the world of cell phones + computer screens, my physical + mental fatigue have taken over, and my focus has left the building. It’s time to step back from the incessant speed of life. Lucky enough, I caught this before spiraling out into a bipolar episode. I have felt it brewing these past weeks, with emotional dysregulation, depressive thoughts and the dance of hypomanic bursts. I’m stepping away for a bit to

October 17th, 2025 Another week of moving forward with my new consulting business- and another experience of depression creeping up after the hypomania of the prior week. Bipolar Disorder never sleeps, so relying on my mental health routine is essential to keep my dream business alive. Total transparency: I don’t have this thing figured out (my business, or bipolar). Total truth: I can get through any bipolar episode or instability with patience and care. Total amazement: I k

August 1st, 2021 14 years ago on this day, August 1st, 2011, I chose to transform my suffering into an asset. My alcoholism was destroying my soul and all I could see was a pain response on repeat: terrified by my undiagnosed bipolar episodes, self-medicating by picking up a drink to numb it away, and soothing the reactivity. But on that day I knew I had to stop or I would probably die. I wanted a change. 14 years later, I am alive, sober, thriving with bipolar disorder and m

I was reminded this week of a pivotal experience in my development as an educator, which is also related to my recovery with bipolar disorder. I started my educator career at a small therapeutic boarding school in New Hampshire called Oliverian School. I saw one of the school’s posts on social media this week about celebrating pride month, and it brought me back 20 years… In 2005, I volunteered at Oliverian in hopes of being offered a job, and I was. I had told the headmaster

March 7th, 2025 It is true that where our focus goes, energy will flow. Whatever I fill my mind with (or whatever thoughts I let my mind obsess about) is what I will feel and manifest. So knowing that, I want to focus on optimism: a hopeful and positive attitude toward my future. This practice is one of my key tools to self-manage my bipolar mood swings and the distorted thoughts that come along with it. To be honest, having an optimistic attitude toward life is not something

I've been thinking a lot about joy lately, what it means to me, what it looks and feels like, and more importantly what place I give it in my life. I spent most of my life until my mid-30s trying to control the outcome of things because I was in such fear of the unknown, especially because of living with an undiagnosed bipolar mood disorder. This led me to fearing joy because I associated this feeling of bliss with uncontrollable impulsivity related to hypomania. This hypoman

I’ve been struggling finding a way to write about what I’ve been experiencing these past weeks. As I navigate grief and loss, I’ve been a bit at a loss for words. I’ve mentioned before that one of the tells of my growth and healing isn’t whether I still feel the same difficult emotions, but rather the behaviors I choose to have around them. One of those signs of healing is that this recent unexpected transition in my life has not triggered a bipolar episode for me. Instead of

I am everything I believe about myself. So I better believe something good… because if I don’t, I will manifest it to happen anyway. I started experiencing severe mood shifts at the tender age of 12 years old. I remember hearing my dad talk about how I could make myself feel good or bad with my thoughts, which would then become my beliefs. I thought it was too easy… How could the simple change in my thoughts guide such a radical experience in my emotions and how I perceive th

(*Written yesterday on August 1st, 2024) Thirteen years ago I made adecision that turned everything around: I chose to stop numbing myself by way of alcohol and drugs so that I could live. So that I could take care of my serious mental health condition I had just been diagnosed with three months earlier. Bipolar Disorder II. Today I’m celebrating. I’m exactly where I want to be, doing exactly what I love: I am sitting in my camp chair at one of my favorite campsites at Golden

Talking about finances and mental health can bring up many conflicting emotions and beliefs. I think I’m cracking open Pandora’s box with this one and it’s a good thing. I was taught by different sources that openly addressing money and personal finances is a big no-no. Even more so, admitting to having financial difficulties can often be a source of shame that consequently encourages people to stay silent about their financial hardships. It’s time that changed. According to

The emotional dysregulation I have experienced this week was apparent in most of my interactions, but especially in my relationships closest to me. Sleep disruption causes real difficulties: it changes my perception of myself and leads to distorted thinking. Communicating clearly with the ones I love when feeling dysregulated and “off” is the most difficult thing I will ever do. Experiencing this challenge is a deep point of growth for me. It’s the growing pains of trusting m

I'm becoming particularly apt at noticing the stress triggers for a bipolar episode or any mood dysregulation. One of those things is the old stories I tell myself and how old triggers from past traumas can swing me out of sorts immediately. The tool that has allowed me to become aware of that link is my mood tracker (or mood chart). I also like to call it my “face-the-facts chart”. Mood tracking is a simple daily observation tool that has changed my life and created space fo

The most difficult thing I do on a daily basis is changing my thoughts . My depressive self-talk. It wasn’t admitting I had a substance abuse problem or getting sober. Or healing past traumas. Or grieving tragic losses. In order for those positive shifts to happen in my life I first had to choose to think differently. I had to see things from a different perspective and change the way I speak to myself. That was, and is, the basis for how I change and move through life. When

Lately I’ve been experiencing that double-edged sword of gift and curse wrapped in one. We all experience in some part of who we are an asset that can feel like a liability. However it can also be the other way around- a liability that is an asset. A superpower. For me, that double-edged sword looks like the excitement and potential devastation of hypomania, a mood state experienced in Bipolar Disorder. This mood has started creeping up for me these past weeks, a state that i