I am

I am everything I believe about myself.

So I better believe something good… because if I don’t, I will manifest it to happen anyway.

I started experiencing severe mood shifts at the tender age of 12 years old. I remember hearing my dad talk about how I could make myself feel good or bad with my thoughts, which would then become my beliefs. I thought it was too easy… How could the simple change in my thoughts guide such a radical experience in my emotions and how I perceive the world, ultimately shaping how I experience it?

All this time later, I believe it.

Part cognitive behavioral psychology, part law of attraction, and all possible.

I am the sum total of my beliefs about me, and I’ve been challenging those olds tapes I play in my head, the ones that play without even realizing it.

One of the most powerful tools I use to catch myself when that happens is my meditation practice. Every day I sit in stillness with myself and observe what my mind is saying. It’s usually stuff that doesn’t even matter and focused on the what ifs of life, scurrying around in unsettled circles of ”what‘s next” and never really here + now.

Being a neutral observer of these thoughts gives me the power to change my focus, not listen to the voice and choose a new point of aim. Most of the time, my meditation is simply focused on the words “come back” or simply “divine”. And when I come back to my center, I notice the voice that says all those useless things quieting down.

It‘s in those moments of pause - the nothingness - where I tell myself affirmations of self-belief, replacing the old unhelpful thoughts with constructive positive ones. I simply say ”I AM” followed by whatever I need to be reminded of that day. Lately it’s been “ I AM capable of accomplishing what I desire”. Seems way too simple… but it actually works.

“I AM” is a generator of energy. A potent one. So I’ve come to use it wisely. Because there is nothing worse than telling myself over and over again for years on end that “I AM never going to be able to do what I want in life because of my bipolar disorder”. That’s just self-defeating… and more importantly, it’s simply not true.

I AM way more than the things that plague me.

I AM responsible for my thoughts.

I AM pure light, an artist, a dreamer, and the culmination of my efforts.

Who are you?

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